When Things Don’t Work Out [Weigh-In #2]

I’m an overly optimistic person. I believe in this crazy notion that everything will be alright and that things will always work themselves out in the end.

For the most part in my life, they have. I’ve moved across the country…twice, but became more well-rounded. I’ve failed tests, but learned from my mistakes. I’ve gotten rejected from jobs I’ve wanted, but kept pushing on. I’ve had my heart broken, but came out stronger on the other end.

For example, back in 2009, despite the fruitful advice from my family and friends, I decided to venture a 4 hour drive home during projected blizzard conditions (one of my finer moments in life). I got stranded in my car, in a blizzard, on a mountain, in the middle of nowhere, without food or water. Luckily, I had a full tank of gas so I could leave my car on to keep warm. Regardless, I was in a desperate situation considering I couldn’t drive anywhere and most of the cars along the side of the road were abandoned with snow rapidly accumulating. I wasn’t sure how long the snow would last, or how long I was going to be trapped in that car. I could have easily flipped out (like my mom was doing) and been in a mad panic. Instead, I was completely calm, I might even use the word relaxed. I spent the night googling blizzard survival tips (ie. how build a snow cave and if it was safe to eat my own arm off) on my newly acquired iPhone and waited for help to come.

This is an actual picture from the beginning of that night. Check out those snowflakes!

After 18 hours of being stranded, my dad and brother finally made it to me in an 4-wheel drive SUV borrowed from a family friend. It was one of the best moments of my life when I heard the horn honking and I saw the lights flashing as they rounded the corner to where I was. I don’t think my dad has ever hugged me so hard in my life.

I suppose the moral of that story is that I never gave up faith that things would work out in the end. Which is how I approach most situations in my life. I’ve always been able to maintain my cool even when the situation seems impossible. I am a strong person and extremely strong willed (is stubborn the word I should use here?). When I believe in something with every fiber of my being, I will do everything I can to make it work.

But sometimes it’s just not enough.

I surprised myself today when my bi-monthly weigh-in sent me into a tizzy. 169.2. A total loss of 0.0 pounds. After last week’s monumental (almost) 6 lb loss, this really disappointed me. I ran every single day last week, ate pretty regularly this weekend…I didn’t even over-indulge during the Super Bowl yesterday. As you can imagine, I was really, really, really discouraged.

Starting weight: 175.0
Current weight: 
169.2
Loss this week: 0
Total loss: -5.8

It’s like you can do all the right things and sometimes it still just don’t work out.

So, I suppose that’s where I’m am [mentally] right at this moment. I’m frustrated. I knew this journey wouldn’t be easy and I knew I would have weigh-ins like this one. I just didn’t expect it to be so early and after 2 weeks of solid exercise and dieting. In true Cait-like form, I will push on. This is something I believe in, something I know I can do. I will make this work. I will do better.

I will be stronger because of it.

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Have you ever felt like you were in a hopeless situation? How did you overcome it?

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  1. I know you are frustrated but think about it this way – At least you didn’t gain weight! You are getting into some good habits! And I have a feeling you will be celebrating a loss next time! So keep your chin up!

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